* Febuary *

This month was really a headache month .. A lot of thing happen to me .. I'm always praying to have a good year for the year of 2011 but too bad when I have to face a lot of terrible and ridicilous moments in my life ..


About my work , I'm still looking for suitable job .. I had tried a lot of works but still have to face a lot of obstacles to get a better job .. I'm always asking to myself , am i made a wrong decision before .. ?! Why everything getting worse .. Especially my relationship .. !!!



Talikng about my relationship , what a bad month when I have to accept the fact that he is not mine anymore .. !!! At the end of Febuary , we had broke off .. Damn sad .. Very unexpected moment .. Just to share not to get sympathy from anyone .. I do admit that I made a lot of mistakes in our relationship but why he suddenly change .. ?! Why he can't accept my explanation .. ?! Yes .. I'm not perfect and I do understand that I'm not the right person for him but can he please end our relationship nicely .. ?!?! Not to put blame on anyone but I'm really can't accept this ..



We had planned for a lot of things for our future but it seems like just a dream for us .. Finally our dream become the dream for him and someone else .. 20112011 .. I'll never forget all the things and moments that we had shared together .. Seiously it too hard .. 27th Febuary 2011 , on the day I suppose to register for my part time study but I didn't do that as I was broke off with him .. !!! Damn .. I just need last change but , I'll never get it .. Who am I to be treated nicely as he said useless even to treat me like a princess .. Yes .. I do admit that I'm bad .. And for the sentence I'll always keep it in my mind and thanx to him for remind me about myself .. From now onwards , I'll remind myself to always be ware with everyone around me .. !!!

The most important thing , I hope I can be strong to face all this things .. Wish me luck and please pray for my happiness .. And for him , If u read this blog , I want u to know that I'll never stop loving u until end of my life cause u are my first love .. I really mean that .. !!!

* After All *

Hype everyone .. Long time no update for my blog since my last post on new year .. I'm so sorry .. Anyway, a lot of things happen to me in year 2011 .. From January until today ..



January ..

Nothing much happen in this month .. Just that I'm still keep jumping for work from 1 company to 1 company .. I don't know why but feel like can't find suitable job for me here .. What a bad luck for me ..

Talk about my relationship , it's getting complicated .. I'm keep thinking for the reason .. What I can said , it's all about MONEY and TRUSTWORTHY .. Yeah .. Some people can say money is everything .. some people say , love is much more important rather than money .. Everyone have their own opinion depend on their situation .. as my situation , I can see my relationship getting worst because of money .. A part of that , Trustworthy also one of the important thing .. We did make a lot of mistake and I admit that .. Just one thing that can be highlighted , please don't ever stop my interest or interrupt my friendship before you become my husband .. After all , I have to take this serious .. I mean it after everyone who come to my life and keep argue with a lot of the things in my life and finally, they leave me with painful .. Should I let myself to be treated in that way for 2nd and 3rd time .. ?! No way man .. I'll never let it happen again .. Watch out .. !!!