* I'm Awake From A Dream *

Welcome back everyone .. I'll continue next episode of my life .. Well .. I don't have much time to update my post since I'm not always online .. I think I have updated a lot of things about my past relationship isn't .. ?! Alright .. I'm thinking to rest my mind for awhile from thinking about my past relationship but not to forget about it since I still have a lot of things to share about it .. Just to share something else in this post..

Well .. I believe whoever had failed in their relationship or love , they gonna find someone else to let them forget the past .. Same goes to me even my heart is not really hunting for it .. In this few months after became single , I had found new friends .. I also keep in touch with my old friend that I've never contact them for quite long time .. I found that I still have a lot of persons that really sincere to take care of myself .. It's really difficult to believe each and everyone of them as I had no more trust for the guys but still I can't jump to the conclusion .. By the time , I'm still keep getting closure to everyone around me .. Sometimes I had hurting other's heart because of my past as I really can't let it go .. I'm so sorry but I need time and need someone to understand myself .. Tried to think like others , let by gone be by gone but it's not that easy .. Too bad when I can't even stop thinking about my ex-hubby .. How I'm gonna thru my day .. ?!

Whatever it is , I'm still satisfied cause I had wake up from the dream .. "Someone" had came into my life and make my day with a coloufull dream .. Yes .. He is not perfect and for sure not like my ex-hubby but he never forced me for any reason .. Always let me find my life and go thru the day with a smile even I'm hurting inside my heart .. He always be by my side and always be a good listener for my past story .. Well , not everyone can take it right .. ?! yes ..

Should I accept him or let he find another girl .. !!! Answer is with me but I'll share next episode later on so that, you guys can help me to find the answer .. !!!

* Are "SHE" is my true Friend *

Friend .. Simple word but a lot of meaning .. I do have a lot of friends but too hard for me to find a true friend .. Let me story in directly .. It's not to put a blame on anyone but I believe all of u guys able to think wisely .. I knew her when I'm working in one of the company .. I do trust her as for me she is a friend and a younger sister .. I don't mind to share anything as long as she's happy with her life cause I knew how hard for her to go thru his life with a lot of problem coming and going .. I do understand as I also have been in her situation but different life and family ..

Can u guys imagine , when i tried to share about my relationship problem with her , she's keep giving a lot of excuse but when my-ex updating her FB wall, she will be the same person who always commented on his wall .. At first , I thought she do not want to involve in our problem but it's difinitely wrong ..

After both of us no longer together , not even 1 week we broke off , I met her with my-ex in a restaurant where I and my-ex always be there to have our lunch as the place recommended by our friend .. When I look at her , she just look at me like we never know each other .. I might understand if she do not recognize me as I just cut my hair .. But unexpected when she just sit on the chair , both of them discussing on something and then they just walked out from the restaurant .. I and my friend just look at them and I keep thinking what is their status .. ?! Are they in a relationship .. ?! If u guys in my situation , what is your query and what is the answer for your query .. ?!

* The meaningfull songs *

http://http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2ljt7depdO8

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kSgGJcv2J2U

* Febuary *

This month was really a headache month .. A lot of thing happen to me .. I'm always praying to have a good year for the year of 2011 but too bad when I have to face a lot of terrible and ridicilous moments in my life ..


About my work , I'm still looking for suitable job .. I had tried a lot of works but still have to face a lot of obstacles to get a better job .. I'm always asking to myself , am i made a wrong decision before .. ?! Why everything getting worse .. Especially my relationship .. !!!



Talikng about my relationship , what a bad month when I have to accept the fact that he is not mine anymore .. !!! At the end of Febuary , we had broke off .. Damn sad .. Very unexpected moment .. Just to share not to get sympathy from anyone .. I do admit that I made a lot of mistakes in our relationship but why he suddenly change .. ?! Why he can't accept my explanation .. ?! Yes .. I'm not perfect and I do understand that I'm not the right person for him but can he please end our relationship nicely .. ?!?! Not to put blame on anyone but I'm really can't accept this ..



We had planned for a lot of things for our future but it seems like just a dream for us .. Finally our dream become the dream for him and someone else .. 20112011 .. I'll never forget all the things and moments that we had shared together .. Seiously it too hard .. 27th Febuary 2011 , on the day I suppose to register for my part time study but I didn't do that as I was broke off with him .. !!! Damn .. I just need last change but , I'll never get it .. Who am I to be treated nicely as he said useless even to treat me like a princess .. Yes .. I do admit that I'm bad .. And for the sentence I'll always keep it in my mind and thanx to him for remind me about myself .. From now onwards , I'll remind myself to always be ware with everyone around me .. !!!

The most important thing , I hope I can be strong to face all this things .. Wish me luck and please pray for my happiness .. And for him , If u read this blog , I want u to know that I'll never stop loving u until end of my life cause u are my first love .. I really mean that .. !!!

* After All *

Hype everyone .. Long time no update for my blog since my last post on new year .. I'm so sorry .. Anyway, a lot of things happen to me in year 2011 .. From January until today ..



January ..

Nothing much happen in this month .. Just that I'm still keep jumping for work from 1 company to 1 company .. I don't know why but feel like can't find suitable job for me here .. What a bad luck for me ..

Talk about my relationship , it's getting complicated .. I'm keep thinking for the reason .. What I can said , it's all about MONEY and TRUSTWORTHY .. Yeah .. Some people can say money is everything .. some people say , love is much more important rather than money .. Everyone have their own opinion depend on their situation .. as my situation , I can see my relationship getting worst because of money .. A part of that , Trustworthy also one of the important thing .. We did make a lot of mistake and I admit that .. Just one thing that can be highlighted , please don't ever stop my interest or interrupt my friendship before you become my husband .. After all , I have to take this serious .. I mean it after everyone who come to my life and keep argue with a lot of the things in my life and finally, they leave me with painful .. Should I let myself to be treated in that way for 2nd and 3rd time .. ?! No way man .. I'll never let it happen again .. Watch out .. !!!

** Ku Rindu Kan DYE yg dulu **

Awk ..

Sy sgt windu kn diri awk yg dl .. awk yg sy knl sejak tahun 2006 dl .. Knaper sume nyer brubah yea ..?! Slh sy ker atau hubungan nie mmg da smpai ker penghujung nyer.?! Demi Allah , sy sgt2 mrndukan diri awk yg dl .. Walau mmg sy yg b'salah tp, knaper smpai tahap mcm nie awk brubah .. ?! Tawar aty nie awk .. Sy hilang xcited tuk sume perancangan kite tahun nie .. 4 tahun benar2 mrubah dr masing2 .. yea .. manusie brubah .. sy juge brubah .. Sekarang , sume nyer hilang .. xder kemesraan mcm dl .. xder gelak tawe .. sume nyer berganti tangisan hiba ..

Kalau dulu , x pernah skali awk izin kn sy mnangis sdey .. Awk slaloo cube hepy kn sy .. Sentiase memahami sy .. Stiap saat awk hibur kn sy .. tp, skrg .. Bl awk t'tekan , sume jd laen .. Sume serba x kene .. Smpai sy takowt tuk b'suare .. Knape yea ..?! Smpai sy rase kn sy x layak tuk dr awk .. smpai sy rase kn ader insan yg lbh bek tuk awk .. Pernah terdetik kat aty nie untuk undur diri .. Nk sgt tgk awk epy .. Sy sanggup pergi klu kbahgiaan awk ngn insan laen .. sy rela andai itu suratan nyer .. Asalkn awk jd dr awk yg sy knl dl..

Ssjujur nyer sy terluke .. dan sy tau awk pown terluke .. Kdg2 ade baik nyer kt berjauhan dr kt dkt mcm nie .. Kdg2 sy pk bek sy sndr jer dr b'due .. Klu sy blh putar mase , sy nk sgt tyme kt mule2 jumper blk dl .. Sy nk mase 2 kekal smpai skunk .. X nk b'ubah wlu sesaat pown ..

Awk .. Sy harap sgt kt jd mcm dl .. Ktawe bersame .. Epy together .. Hmmm ..



Miss our Happy moments ..

HAPPY NEW YEAR

Happy New Year everyone .. Tahun nie 2011.. Dgn azam + smangat br .. serta perancangan yg pelbagai .. Moge taun nie segale aper yg dirancang kn akn tercapai .. moge dberikn kekuatan dan ktabahan tuk mengharungi sume dugaan + cabaran dlm tahun nie .. Alhamdulillah .. tahun ne dmulakn dgn niat yg bersih .. sume blocklist di FB , MS + Tagged da di clear kn .. kt tetap frens 4 ever + ever .. Maaf atas sgale keterlanjuran kate + tingkah laku yg byk menyinggung aty + prasaan sesaper .. Aper pown . let's start our new year wth 0 -0 .. Ok .. With luv .. Muahhxx .. xoxo ..

PESANAN BUAT SUAMI - oleh Dato Dr Hj Mohd Fadzilah Kamsah

Renungan Buat Bakal Suami ku - Muhammad Khuzairi Jaafar

1. Selalu menghargai usaha dan penat-lelah isteri, terutama isteri yang bekerja dan sama-sama terpaksa menanggung hutang suami.

2. Bila isteri bercakap, pandanglah mukanya dan buka telinga luas-luas. Biar apa yang dikatakannya masuk telinga kanan dan tersumbat di telinga kiri. Sambil tu otak suami kenalah memproses informasi yang diterima daripada isteri dengan bijak serta prihatin.

3. Jangan sekali-kali membandingkan masakan isteri atau cara isteri menghias rumah dengan mak anda kecuali masakan/cara menghias isteri anda lebih baik dan canggih dari emak anda..

4. Jangan demand sex sekiranya isteri tak ada mood atau letih. Agama suruh kahwin bukan semata-mata untuk penuhi nafsu syahwat saja.

5. Kalau pasangan dah ada anak, sama-samalah menjaga anak. Benih dari awak juga.. Ada suami, isteri sedang makan disuruh cebok kencing n berak anak sedangkan suami duduk tersandar kekenyangan macam maharaja.

6. Jangan sekali-kali duduk tersandar depan TV atau relax-relax sedangkan isteri bila balik dari kerja, buka saja kasut terus masuk dapur, memasak, mengemas, membasuh, kejar anak dsbnya. Berbulu mata dan sayu hati isteri bila kami tak cukup tangan nak menguruskan rumahtangga sedangkan suami lepas tangan.

7. Sekiranya suami makan dahulu, tinggalkan sedikit lauk utk isteri. Jangan bedal semua sampai turn isteri yang tinggal cuma ekor ikan sekerat, janggut sotong dan ekor taugeh.

8. Kalau nak ajak member bertandang ke rumah, beritau isteri dulu, kalau boleh sehari-dua in advance. Jadi bolehlah dia memasak yang best-best dan mengemas rumah cantik-cantik. Bayangkan perasaan isteri kalau tetamu datang terpacak sedangkan kain-baju masih berlonggok belum sempat dilipat, permainan anak masih berselerak dan isteri cuma masak mi maggi saja.

9. Jangan sekali-kali menyakat isteri tentang saiz badannya yang semakin sihat atau semakin melidi. Tengok body sendiri dalam cermin dulu.

10. Jangan kentut depan isteri. Masa bercinta dulu kenapa boleh control kentut?

11. Hormatilah ibu-bapa dan kaum keluarga isteri walaupun anda cuma main wayang, bodek mereka masa nak mengurat isteri anda dulu. Jangan sekali mencaci mereka walaupun secara bergurau.

12. Jangan kedekut dengan isteri serta keperluan rumahtangga.

13. Jagalah maruah anda sebagai suami dan lelaki. Selagi boleh, jangan bebankan isteri dengan masaalah kewangan anda. Selalunya perempuan ni, semakin suami “degil” tak nak minta pertolongan, selagi itulah dia rela nak tolong.

14. Jangan bersepah dan bersikap pengotor. Dah buka baju, letakkan dalam bakul baju kotor, dah guna cungkil gigi, buanglah dalam bakul sampah, bila dah guna ubat gigi bubuh balik penutupnya, dah ambil sesuatu barang simpan balik ditempat asal, dah berak flush. Susah sangat ke nak buat macam tu? Semua nak kena ajar ke?

15. Rajin-rajinlah bertanya isteri kalau dia perlukan bantuan anda dengan kerja rumah/menjaga anak. Tapi jangan tanya dua tahun sekali. Jangan tunjuk rajin bila ada tetamu di rumah saja.

16. Hormatilah isteri anda sebagaimana anda mahu dihormati. Isteri pun manusia. Allah berikan banyak keistimewaan kepada para isteri tapi diputar-belitkan tafsirannya oleh orang lelaki untuk kepentingan diri sendiri.

17. Jangan main kayu tiga dengan perempuan lain. Main lain lagi tak boleh. Kalau isteri awak yang buat, tentu awak tak boleh tolerate, jadi mengapa isteri awak kena tolerate kalau awak buat?

18. Kalau tak menyukai sikap atau perbuatan isteri, tegurlah secara baik, jangan asyik nak menengking aja. Kalau awak sakit nak mati nanti, siapa yang kena jaga awak? Bai jual roti? Apek jual sayur? Jiran sebelah rumah awak?

19. Kalau isteri nampak tak sihat, cepat-cepatlah bawa jumpa doktor. Tunjuklah anda mengambil berat tentang dirinya.

20. Berbincanglah dengan isteri sebelum sesuatu keputusan dibuat. Walaupun suami megah ada kuasa veto, tak jadi bapok kalau pendapat isteri diambil kira. Pokok pangkalnya ialah timbangrasa dan saling menghargai. Cubalah ketepikan ego yang keterlaluan. Bukannya laku bila dah mati nanti.

21. Dalami agama dan bimbinglah anak isteri dengan ikhlas seperti yang dituntut agama. Ingat, kalau seorang suami masuk syurga, besar kemungkinan isteri pun masuk syurga. Kalau suami masuk neraka belum tentu isteri juga masuk neraka. Kalau isteri masuk neraka, besar kemungkinan suami juga masuk NERAKA tapi kalau isteri masuk syurga belum tentu suami pun masuk syurga.Ini bukan rekaan saya tapi saya dengar dari seorang ustaz.

22. Berusahalah dengan ikhlas untuk mempertahankan keharmonian rumahtangga. Jangan buat apa yang isteri tak suka. Percayalah, kalau suami buat baik sekali dengan isteri, isteri balas sepuluh kali

23. Jangan buat donno kalau isteri merajuk atau berkecil hati. Kalau perlu minta maaf, minta maaf, kalau perlu dipujuk, pujuk. Hati orang pompuan ni sensitif. Kalau kami rasa suami tak ambil kisah, perasaan bagai dihiris-hiris. Perkara yang dipandang remeh oleh suami boleh menjadi kanser kepada isteri. Kepada para suami khususnya dan kaum lelaki amnya, janganlah dianggap masalah hati dan perasaan orang perempuan ni enteng sahaja.

Allah s.w.t. berfirman, “Dan ketahuilah bahawasanya Allah mengetahui apa yang didalam hatimu, sebab itu berhati-hatilah dengan Tuhan”



* Hubby sy da ader blog *

Hubby sy da ader blog sndr .. Nie URL nyer , http://sinaranpelangi-khuzai.blogspot.com/ Ader kmajuan .. hehehe .. Sronok bace 1st post dye .. Trase diriku begitu b'harge .. Bby syg aby sgt2 cyg .. Thanx syg 4 everything .. Nnt update lar blog 2 slaloo yea .. Ok .. Enjoy + have fun with ur new blog + life .. (",)

* FIGHT FOR OUR LOVE *

"IF SOMEONE TRYING TO GET U FROM ME , SHE HAVE TO FACE ME 1ST .. BUT IF U WANT TO LEAVE ME FOR SOMEONE ELSE, DO LET ME KNOW AND I'LL LET U GO FOR YOUR HAPPINESS"